So lots has happened since last I wrote.
Thursday I waitressed. It was OK. Trained a new girl… blah blah blah. On the way home Ryan told me J called him. I felt my heart sink to my stomach and my face flushed. I didn’t know what to say. I asked what he wanted. He said he called to apologized about what happened between us. I asked how Ryan felt about this, he said he was fine so on we went with our night.
Friday I did some real estate work then waitressed. after work we went out for a while. We started at the bar, then were suppose to go to a friends but when we got there they we’re sleeping. So on the way back we stopped at another bar that his mom was at then went home. When we got there we argued about something. I’m not even sure what it was we were fighting about! But I turned the TV off that he was watching and we talked. We talked about how things haven’t been right for a while. We actually broke up. He said we were going to break up but still live together like roommates. We would see other people but not in front of each other. Then he asked about J. He wanted to know how I felt about him. I said I didn’t know. That I thought I might like him. He said he was leaving and going to his moms. Then we fought some more. Then we cried together and got back together and cuddled.
When I woke I looked like crap. My eyes were all puffy and red. I went to work. After we went out again. It was Val’s birthday. We went to the bar till close then to Ashley’s then out for breakfast then to Val’s. She wanted to drink till 9am so we did. Then we went to our apartment and drank and talked till noonish. J came up again. I said I thought we were done with that he wanted to ask one question. He wanted to know if we held hands, I asked why, he said J told him we did. I said I think so but I didn’t remember. Then the conversation turned to the future. Ryan said he wants to Marry me and have a baby with me. Which is something he has never said. Weird!
Then all Sunday we slept.
Its so weird though. I don’t really think about J anymore. After all this crap me and Ryan have actually gotten stronger! What happened between me and J made us talk about stuff we have been avoiding for awhile! So we know where we are, we know where we want to go, we just need to figure out how to get there. And I’m looking forward to figuring out together!
I also think me and J could be good friends. I realized something when arguing with Ryan. I think I liked talking with him so much because he does talk to me. To most of his other friends I’m Ryan’s girl… thats it. They may ask how things are going and stuff but they never really talk to me like a person. I hang outwith these people almost every weekend and they don’t really know me at all! J actually wanted to get to know me and told me about himself. I like that about him. So we’ll be friends and me and Ryan will live happily ever after?
Goodnight,
Melissa
