I had my coaching call by phone today. It went well. Got some great ideas and motivation. It was OK.
I am a major dumb ass though and forgot my class in Madison. I thought it was Tuesday until 6:00 and realized I completely missed it.
Had dinner at mom’s as usual.
Alicia went shopping. She bought Ryan shoes and me a hoodie.
It was nice of her.
I’m in a funk. J hasn’t text me back. I know he’s trying to avoid me. I think he’s mad I told Ryan what happened. It kinda sucks. I hoped he’d call today. He didn’t. I am all messed up inside. I’m starting to think I’m not in love with Ryan anymore. I don’t know. Sometimes I’m not so sure he’s in love with me anymore. We talked some about one night awhile ago when he got wasted and never came home. I wasn’t happy. He said maybe we need a break. I just think maybe because we’re so comfortable together that we just stay together. I’m not sure anymore. It’s not all because of J, but if I was still in love with Ryan would I be thinking about him so much? I’m not sure.
This is so confusing!!!!
Goodnight,
Melissa
