Today was pretty boring.
The front tires of my car finally gave out. I bought new ones and Ryan said he was going to change them a couple months ago. When he was driving to work they finally went. So he had to spend and hour putting on the dummy tire. Then he calls me mad this happened and wants me to call mom to have someone do it at my uncle’s salvage yard. I don’t know why he’s mad at me, I’ve been telling him to do it forever!
Then he had to borrow money from his Grandpa to pay back the people that loaned us the money to bail out Ryan. We told them that it might be awhile before we can pay them back. But all of a sudden its a big deal. Whatever!
So after we drove in Endeavor to do that we went to my mom’s in Portage for dinner.
Later in the night I text J to tell him I talked to Ryan and that him and that guy he fought with are talking again. He wrote back thanks and that he was sorry. I asked what he was sorry for but no answer so yeah…
He’s still n my mind all the time. I always wonder how it would be to be with him. Fantasize. No good right? I don’t know what it is about him but there’s something I can’t get to stop in my brain.
Yup I suck as a girlfriend all of a sudden.
But I do love Ryan, don’t get me wrong I just wonder sometimes. Is that normal for a 3 year relationship?
Alright goodnight,
Melissa
